18 Today
My son, my youngest child, turns 18 today. Goodness but time does fly! It seems but yesterday he was swinging, playing, and wanting dad to help him catch a bug. Now he is driving and insists today he will buy his first lottery ticket. I do not think that’s such a good idea. But, hey, he’s now an adult.
How did I become a father? It certainly is not because of the experience of camaraderie of childhood. As much as I can remember, my dad was impatient and quick to slap with the open hand. He died when I was a little boy, and I do not remember shedding a tear. Mom remarried a few years later. My teen years were spent in what I now consider to have been a rather dysfunctional family. Mom had her kids, and step-dad had his kids, and no one really enjoyed the company of the other. Fights were frequent and I did not have a father during those important years. I gravitated toward church. Greatly I admired the pastor, and was blessed that he took time for conversation and friendship with a lost teenage boy. And, the dad of my first real girlfriend thought I was worth a bit of his time. His wife did not like me, and now I appreciate why. But he was a good guy, a good example of fatherhood.
At the age of 24 I fell in love and made plans to marry. Often I told my wife-to-be that children were not part of the plans. She married me anyway. About five years later the first child came along. It was not a mistake. My children are the result of a loving and healthy relationship and the desire to allow another human being to be part of that love.
So I learned to be a dad on the fly. Sometimes I did well, and sometimes I messed up. And I’ll be a better grandparent. Truly, grandchildren give those like me a chance to be born again.
Now my boy 18 years of age, a man. What a wonderful privilege has been mine to share life with this special person. He is smart, handsome, and self-assured. And he is doing much better than I at that stage of life. This quality young man is especially gifted of God to make a positive impact upon others. He thinks he wants to be a Marine, and I think he would make a good College student. Ultimately it is his choice. I’ve no doubt he will succeed, and so my heart is at rest.
I must let go. He has dreams galore, and I should not get in the way. He has entered into a new season of life, beyond childhood and adolescence. I will be there to watch with a smile, I’ll suggest, prod, and pray. And never will he cease to be my son. The connection will always be there. Nothing he can or will do will slow my love for him. And, he knows it.
Last week I had an interesting conversation with my mother-in-law. Her husband, Roy, died a few years ago. He was a military retiree who seemed, to me, strict and very private. Thus she surprised me when she told me that Roy liked to dance the jitterbug. She said, on Friday afternoons, he would come home from work and “dance into the house”. The two would go out and dance the night away. Funny- I cannot picture it in my head.
And I wonder what my boy thinks of me.
I do not mind that he knows I am imperfect. At times I messed up with this fatherhood business. Not always- sometimes I’ve been a pretty good dad! A favourite scripture comes to mind, I Peter 4:8, “Above all keep fervent in your love for one another, because love covers a multitude of sins.” Life will take my boy many places. He will succeed, no doubt. He will hit some rough times, too. And, he will smile and remember that Dad loves him.
Happy birthday, Brock.
07.29.07 (5:52 pm) [
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To A Wonderful Mom From A Grateful Son-In-Law
(1) The room is quite adequate for my needs. Quaint. Bed very comfortable. I don't need to sleep with my wife.
(2) Obviously attractive at any age. Has she lost weight?
(3) The stories continue ever to be interesting, even fascinating.
(4) Yes, I will consider driving out here every year for our vacation.
(5) Simply, I am happy when my wife is happy.
(6) Perhaps Mom would like to come live with us?
(7) The dog is just a puppy. I think it is cute how he jumps upon me and slobbers on my pants. It is really no big deal.
(8) I would love to go to yard sales with you and Mom.
(9) Mom's false eyelash is drying on my nightstand. No problem.
(10) Yes. I think one should deeply consider every sales call on the phone, and intimately discuss financial needs with the door-to-door salesman. And listening to it for several hours daily does not bother me. It is interesting.
07.24.07 (9:57 am) [
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Big Ole Lonely Twin Bed
Let's just say the vacation has hit an interesting point.
We arrived at the home of Mother-in-Law yesterday. We do not see each other much. And sometimes I wonder what she thinks about me. Then I consider some of the things I tend to think about every guy that ever feigns interest in my daughters. The guys inevitably tend to not be very smart. Nor do they look particularly attractive. Nor do I enjoy thir presence or conversation. My daughters could always, surely, do much better. And so at best I tolerate these guys and try not to say or do things which would further isolate. Mostly I stare, deeply, and say very little.
Yesterday and today I've noticed Mom staring. She is nice, when she speaks, which is little.
Last night when it was bedtime Brother-in-Law showed me to my bedroom. My Bedroom. My wife was slated to sleep with her mother! I did not think that was such a good idea. I'm married to her, and I like to sleep with her. But I simply smiled and pretended everything was cool. Not too much of a smile and actually very little pretense. Still, I think I behaved in a socially acceptable way. I was told, with the limited space, there could be no other arrangements. I was not convinced. And so I was shown my room. It was a tiny little room with a tiny little window. Negligible furnishings. And, a single twin bed. It reminded me of a jail cell. When I entered the room and closed the door, very much I thought of Clint Eastwood in Escape From Alcatrez and Tim Robbins in Shawshank Redemption.
Mom seemed quite happy with things. I whispered later to my wife that we could probably fit together on a twin bed. And at that moment I was reminded anew of a universal truth: Never-ever force your wife to choose between her mother and yourself- you will not like her decision.
So here I sit, Day 2 at Mom's House. We are scheduled to leave in 3 days. Three Days. I have a recurring thought, almost a nightmare, of that foreboding day. Wife and Mom and Brother are standing on the porch, arms entwined and eerie smiles on faces, waving as I pull out from the driveway. I'm driving a '49 Packard. And I'm all alone.
My vacation has really just begun.
07.23.07 (3:19 pm) [
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Loading Up For Family Vacation
Friday morning we will be taking off for an 8-day family vacation trip.
If you are a thief, you will find the spare key under the welcome mat. Just remember that Jesus will be watching. Jesus is my 120 pound bulldog who will tear you to pieces in a friendly, Christian kind of way.
There are 6 of us. With my kids growing up and all the changes going on, this could very well be our last family vacation. I am really proud that all three of my kids are willing to forego a week of pay to travel together in a cramped car and sleep in cramped motels, just to be together. Actually we are taking two vehicles. My son is driving his car. I doubt that I'll volunteer to be a passenger with him, since he will be playing his head-splitting, unintelligible music. Also, he's awfully fast on the brakes and with the turns. Good grief, I am sounding old!
Tomorrow we will travel to Holly Springs, Mississippi, where we will stay for two days. It looks to be about 7 hours away. I'm not sure what is in Holly Springs, other than a Hampton Inn and some gardens. We will explore the place together. Then it is on to Little Rock, Arkansas, to visit with family. And yes, I do plan to tour the Clinton Library & Museum. I am having a hard time convincing any of the family to join me. From all I read about it, I believe it will be interesting. And I also plan to hike some of the trails in the Little Rock/Benton area.
I feel good that we have made family vacations a tradition. It is good for the family, and good to be refreshed.
I'll be reporting in regularly, not with a travelogue, but with some thoughts along the road. We will arrive in Holly Springs tomorrow around 4 p.m. See you there?
07.19.07 (8:57 pm) [
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Navel-Gazing About t-Blog & ShoutPost & Stuff
I read Nick’s latest post on ShoutPost.
I get the understanding that Nick and Rocky still consider us to be their kids. We’re the Black Sheep. Make that the 900-pound Black Sheep, hanging around freeloading and complaining, eating up the bandwidth and playing videos and otherwise contributing little to the wellbeing of the family enterprise. I’m afraid one of these days Papa and Papa II are going to get tired and kick us out.
I can picture the scene even now….
The nerdy t-Blogger (PastorDave) is adjusting his bifocals, nibbling from a bowl of Cheetos, and attempting to write another inane post about another quasi-interesting subject. Room is a mess. Half-eaten sandwiches and dirty clothes compose the dingy scenery, silhouetting a glowing computer monitor.
Papa Nick walks in after a 20-hour workshift. t-Blogger looks up and blinks, and with a blank stare listens to the latest tirade:
“Son, you know we love you. But, you’re 51, and still living here free. Don’t you think it is about time for you to do something constructive…like attract advertisers?”
"But, dad-"
About that time, Papa Rocky walks through the door. Shirt is freshly starched, tie looks nice, and beard impeccably trimmed. He gives Nick an affectionate peck upon the cheek, then looks with his steely eyes upon his slob of a son. I quickly gaze away.
“Boy. You’ve been doing this t-Blog thing for over two years. You’re not making any money. All you’re doing is wasting ours. Look- Shoutpost is next door. It’s nice and shiny. Why don’t you give it a try?”
There’s a sigh, and a look downward of utter frustration. Then, a tired smile and glance at Nick, accompanied with a pat upon his shoulder.
“Look, son. We’ve been patient. But it’s time for a change.”
I turn back to the monitor. There’s a grimace to my face, and a mist in my eyes. I know my dads care. I know they are right.
It’s just that I….I love t-Blog! How could they understand?
I reach for a sip of Diet Coke. It steadies my nerves. I hear the door shut, and begin anew to write the next post.
07.16.07 (9:43 pm) [
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Help To Relax
Please look at the image below
Unclutter your mind of everything else
Focus all of your attention at the center dot
Allow your mind to rest....and rest
You are very comfortable
You are getting sleepy
You will make a generous contribution to the PastorDave Retirement Fund
You will
do it now
07.06.07 (11:36 am) [
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Misc. Musings Of A Small Mind, Part V
Let's quickly catch up on a few matters... PastorDave's Cookout
It was a great time, and the first cookout I've ever attended with kimchi and hamburgers on the same picnic table. Over 50 people came along. The burgers were burned on the outside and raw inside, thanks to yours truly. Nobody seemed to care. A fun experience was trying to explain to new Korean friends some of the colloquialisms of the Southern version of the English language. Internationals tend to speak precise English. Folks from Georgia and Alabama work hard to break most of the rules of proper grammar and syntax. It is a lazy, hazy version of the language, but we like it. And it was fun to teach these guys how to say "yall".
As a sidenote, I do not think we had any guests from t-blog-land. However, a couple of strange characters lurked about and maybe darted in to snatch a rib or burger. One was wearing a muscle shirt and shorts up to his navel, and gazed with a blank stare. I'm told he communicated with grunts, uncomfortably reminding some of the mutants from "The Hills Have Eyes". Anyone know any of our bloggers with said characteristics?
My Daughter's Boyfriend
It's time. Often I have repeated the old adage that you cannot always change the situation, but you can change your attitude. I need to be nice to him. I need to treat him with the same kindness, dignity, and generosity of spirit with which I seek to relate to most people. He's probably a nice guy. Perhaps I could even like him. This will be a challenge. I'm going to try. I think it's worth it, for the sake of peace, and because I love my daughter.
Bought A Car
2003 Chevy Tracker. I arranged the financing over the Internet. With HSCB I was given a very good interest rate, and I would encourage you to check with these guys if you are looking for financing. Probably, most dealerships could not beat them. And it was quite helpful to walk into the dealerships with the financing already set. I was able to knock almost $2000 off the sticker price. This is the first time in many years that we have had two dependable vehicles. Both have reverse, and a/c! Ah, life is good.
Washed My Cell Phone
It's not a good idea. I left my phone in my jeans. It came out nice and shiny. It does not work. So I'm giving a trial with t-mobile to go. I'm able to buy 1150 anytime minute for about $90. If this could average out to about $30/month, then it's a good idea. I do not yak on the phone like the rest of the family. It's mostly for business. So, we will see...
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Dave's Cookout - Come On Down!
4 p.m. on the 4th of July. Come on. The more the merrier! Just follow the map to McDaniel Farm Park in Duluth, GA. We’ll be a little less than a mile along the trail, to the left. The spot will be nice and shady. I’ll be the guy at the grill. There is no promise of good food. But the conversation will be great.
T-mail me for directions. Or just Google it, and come on down!
My plans- a cookout for about a half-dozen. Even though a grilling neophyte, I could handle that. I found a great deal on some disposable grills. I have a spatula and a fork. So, no problem.
I’m not sure how matters developed from there… We invited another couple, or two. And some more. Word got around. The phone started ringing. And now we have twenty five people coming to the cookout.
What to do….What to do…
The only grilling I can do is with a disposable grill. I light the match, let it sit for awhile, and cook the hamburger. Sometimes it’s burned, or raw, and sometimes it’s good. These grills are about the size of a big book. I’m going to have to buy some more. Lots more.
The parks around here are a beehive for the holidays. Especially the Internationals pack the parks, squeezing into every available space with children and loud music. I was thinking McDaniel Farm would be a place with a good chance of securing a picnic table. It’s basically a walking and nature park. It does not have playgrounds or grills. So my idea was to use a table located about three quarters of a mile inside the park. It was a good plan for the few of us. But now….we’ve 25 or more guests, and some have not walked a mile in many years.
What to do…What to do…
I’ll simply go with the flow. No need to worry this thing to death. It’s for fun. I’ll roll a portable grill in there. Everybody else will pitch in, and we will have a great time. Right?
So come on! Dave’s Cookout begins at 4. I’ll bring some extra grills, you bring a spatula, and we’ll have a good time.
07.02.07 (10:15 am) [
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